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 title: On feeling better
 date: 2023-08-19
+modified: 2023-08-27
 tags: blog life accomplishments goals tasks productivity philosophy
 description: To myself, those who are lost, those who are afraid, those who have that interesting feeling in their chest, and every other fellow human.
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 > Alright, fellow reader you better be prepared for a huge wall of text on life and whatnot that I'll be spewing out of my brain for the next few minutes. I am definitely going to read this back and get the creeps, but I'll be damned if I don't post this.
 
-> Initially, this was supposed about where we stand after the preliminary revamp transition. And somehow I just couldn't control it. Sharing experiences, thoughts and emotions became the primary goal.
+> Initially, this was supposed to be a post about the current standings of the blog after the preliminary revamp transition. And somehow I just couldn't control it. Sharing experiences, thoughts and emotions became the primary goal.
 
 A person goes through a ton of experiences over the course of their life. Experiences that we would normally classify as either good or bad. Oftentimes what we do is let these experiences dictate our actions and our mood - what we would do next is based off of whatever we have encountered before. Fine way to live life I suppose, but definitely feels as if you're not in control.
 
 I am no enlightened expert when it comes to life, and I fall prey to the same aforementioned thing all the time. However, I believe making this post in a remote corner of the internet is still a significant contribution to the world, and myself. I didn't make any posts or any updates to this place for about two years. Within those years, I have had experiences that I can't put to words, and nobody else can live. These experiences form what I am right now. And I'll be honest, I don't know if I want to let go of any experiences just because I think they are *bad*.
 
-> I have gone through three like three drafts framing whatever comes next. I know what I want to talk about, but I really don't know how to put it into words. And I am not sure if this is the best rendition that I can come up with.
+> I have gone through like three drafts framing whatever comes next. I know what I want to talk about, but I really don't know how to put it into words. And I am not sure if this is the best rendition that I can come up with.
 
-**Afraid and anxious** - perhaps one of the strongest feelings that resonates universally. All of us have been afraid and/or anxious at some point in our life. And more often than not, it's not just once; it's a lot of the times. I have no way to talk about this that doesn't sound like a cliché. It's surreal feeling of uncertainty that gets to all of us. Uncertainty about the future, uncertainty about the consequences to some of our actions, uncertainty about how others perceive us, uncertainty about what we're gonna make of ourselves. We end up spending our time in the present thinking about something we can't control if we do nothing but just think about it. And what ends up happening is that by the end of it all, you realize you had been running out of time all the while. The final feeling? Regret, remorse, and more anxiety - ready to fuel the next cycle.
+**Afraid and anxious** - perhaps one of the strongest feelings that resonates universally. All of us have been afraid and/or anxious at some point in our life. And more often than not, it's not just once; it's a lot of the times. I have no way to talk about this that doesn't sound like a cliché. It's the surreal feeling of uncertainty that gets to all of us. Uncertainty about the future, uncertainty about the consequences to some of our actions, uncertainty about how others perceive us, uncertainty about what we're gonna make of ourselves. We end up spending our time in the present thinking about something we can't control if we do nothing but just think about it. And what ends up happening is that by the end of it all, you realize you had been running out of time all the while. The final feeling? Regret, remorse, and more anxiety - ready to fuel the next cycle.
 
 I am not here to talk about a recipe to ending this cycle because let's be honest, all of us are aware of the means to the end. We give ourselves excuses to not achieve said means, and welp there you have it - gotta wait for another cycle to perhaps get it right.
 
 Embracing the uncertainty is difficult, but in my opinion it is one of the greatest ways to let go of that anger and regret that you have against yourself. Accept that you couldn't control something, but don't be overly accepting either - you need to have some control over things that you have the ability to control.
 
 Societal norms, expectations, people's *opinions* will always be out there. In fact, this whole post? My opinion. I don't expect you to follow it; I expect you take bits that are useful and relevant to you, and persevere. Let's say you were using a dictionary. Nobody expects you to read the whole thing, but if you own one, you're bound to use it to find something that **you need**.
 
-Just before I was starting to write the third rendition, I was having that same feeling of anxiety - fueled by thoughts of *so-many-things-to-do*, dissatisfaction and whatnot. The best thing I could do about it Embrace the feeling, realize that I do have imperfections, and do things that I can do to better myself. And that's how I came to write this post. Thing is, let that feeling sit there at the back of your mind. And know that you need to work upon yourself. In my opinion, I don't think I will ever get rid of it because at the end of the day, it's a signal that I have more to do. And if I just stop and keep thinking about it, I'll have even more to do.
+Just before I was starting to write the third rendition, I was having that same feeling of anxiety - fueled by thoughts of *so-many-things-to-do*, dissatisfaction and whatnot. The best thing I could do about it: Embrace the feeling, realize that I do have imperfections, and do things that I can do to better myself. And that's how I came to write this post. Thing is, let that feeling sit there at the back of your mind, and know that you need to work upon yourself. In my opinion, I don't think I will ever get rid of it because at the end of the day, it's a signal that I have more to do. And if I just stop and keep thinking about it, I'll have even more to do.
 
 I want everyone to take pride in themselves and their actions if they have good intentions. Being a decent human being is the least we can do to make meaning out of this life, right? People will criticize you. Accept it. If you don't agree, move on. If you do agree even a little bit, *take what you need*, make adjustments, continue. Truth to enlightenment? I am no Buddha. But truth that we all are aware of? We've got only one life we can control at the moment, and perhaps making the most of it would turn out to be the last thing we'll regret.